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不知不觉，我爱了你113天了。我不知为什么，我就是很爱你。也不知为什么，你伤了我这样深，我还会越爱你。或许你也很伤，或许你也放弃了。或许这是我们的考验？我知道你不喜欢我晚上出。你要我乖乖，其实，要以个人该是需要时间的，不是一两天就能改变的事。为什么你就不要看下我改变的东西？而要一直抓住我的缺点？你要的，我都知道。我都清楚明白。你不要我一直都由我自己的心情来控制自己。或许你觉得，我没变过。或许你真得很累。有时，我真的不是故意要不听你话。只是你不在，我就会想很多，就会不开心。我有站在你立场想过，真的有。我也了解。我答应过你的事，我会做。可是，你呢？或许你觉得你以做到了。确实，你真地做到。其实我也有做到。只是你看不到罢了。也许是时间过了。

我为了你改变的时候，你在哪里？我很痛的时候，你在哪里？我想念你的时候，你在哪里？我需要你的时候，你在哪里？我知道你也很想问我这些问题。我可以回答你。在你很痛的时候，你并没有找我，我又怎么知道呢？在你需要我的时候，你也没有找我。

你觉得我们还有机会到回以前吗？很多人很肯定得跟我说，“只要你变就一定能。感情可以慢慢培养。你从以前的喜欢变到现在的深爱，也是培养的。那为什么你们不可以跟以前那样开心或比以前开心？”

Today :'(

Today I cried like a kid at class :'( 

Cause i am totally breakdown ! :'( 

Everyone is calling me to give up :'( ! 

HELLO ! 

Not I don't want to give up ! 

Is i can't and also don't know how to give up :'( ! 

There is no reason to let me give up too :'( 

Although got also hard to give up ! :'( 

I strong for 3 weeks edy ! I am tired of acting that i am strong ! 

Do you know ?! :'( 

Idk why !

I really dk why ! :'( 

I am trying to don't think about him ! 

But he always come out in front of my eye ! :'( 

MG ! 

This is the first time i cry til like this at school :'( 

I never try this before :'( 

Why is me ??!! :'( 

Why ?!! :'( 

I though this all is just a dream ! :'( 

I always told myself this was a dream ! 

He is still mine ! :'( 

But today then i know that I am just lying myself :'( 

I always tell myself he will come back at the another day ! :'( 

I always call mysel to be strong ! :'( 

Yea , strong for 3 weeks edy :'( ! 

Iam totally tired on acting STRONG :'( ! 

I am really first time cry like this :'( 

cry from my heart ! :'( 

Please laaaaaa .. 

I hate this exhausting feeling :'( ! 

I know it very clear that HE IS WONT COME BACK TO ME AGAIN :'( 

I knew it .. 

SO ! 

Please don't tell me about he want give up me or what what what else edy ! 

Cause I am edy know all about this !!!!!! :'( 

stop telling me please ! cause it was hurting me :'( ! 

please :'( ! 

i am very hard to strong up myself :'( ! 

I don't want because of those things to breakdown again ! :'(

Please , for my limit , i just want cry out loud for him 1 time ONLY :'( ! 

I don't want got another time :'( ! 

And please stop scolding me that I am not appreciate :'( ! 

I know it edy !!!! 

please stop scold ! :'( 

please stand at my side and think for me :'( 

don't just think for him e :'(

i am hurt too luo :'( he is not hurt anymore also why help him scold me :'(

can scold but 1 time enough laaaa :'( why want scold me again and again ? :'( 

PRESSURE !!!!!!!!!! :'( 

:'(

我還不明白 為什麼你離開了我 

我每天晚上在這裡 哪裡也不去  

可是我好愛你 我覺得我會離不開你 

可惜我丟了你 慢慢我的眼淚流下來  

別再哭 就讓他走 再多痛苦的等待 相信我也能承受 

閉上眼 不再留戀 你卻一遍又一遍 出現在想你的夜  

別說 不會有結果 永遠永遠 別說分手 

而你 又怎麼能夠 就這樣的放手 一去不再回頭  

我需要你 馬上來我的身邊

Glad to know him in my life :')

Idk why :(( 

when i saw he very good wih other girls , 

i will very hurt :'( 

i cry whole afternoon just now :'( 

I know he wont come back anymore :'( 

he got his new target now :'( 

i shouldn't go and disturb him :'(

no matter how , 

i must be strong infront of him ! :'( 

i must ! 

i can't let he see that i'm weak :'( 

i can't let him know i'm sad , 

i'm hurt or what else .. 

although he know that he also wont care :'( 

cause he edy give up on me :'( 

what i do for him , 

he also don't care anymore . 

just same like now , 

i change for him , 

but he never knew it <////////////3 . 

i should stay strong :'( 

i think he is gonna chase the girl now :'( 

this afternoon i am alone .. 

i cut myself again :'( 

i am too serious in this relationship :'( 

i want he come back to me ! 

i want him ! 

but all is too late now :'( 

i am so down now :'(

i think he is edy give up on me :'( 

if he cares about me , 

i wont sad now :'( 

i keep lie myself that he will come back tmr :'( 

i put all of the faith on tmr :'( 

BUT .. 

tmr and tmr and tmr .. 

all is still same :'( 

i think i should wake up now :'( 

stop lying myself :'( 

every night i close my eye and after few minutes , 

i will wake up again , 

wake up and think ,

now i do so many things for him , 

is it too late ? 

am i still need to continue do for him ? :'( 

should i ? :'( 

i always ask myself :'( 

but evry times i will answer myself : 

I SHOULD . NO MATTER HOW , I SHOULD CONTINUE DO FOR HIM CAUSE I LOVE HIM :'( 

but .. 

when i saw he chat with other girl til so good . 

SUDDENLY , 

i feel that all i done is NOTHING for him <///////////////////3 . 

shit it :'( 

boy changes heart really fast :'( 

really really fast :'( 

but so what ? :'(

now what i do also ZERO for him :'( 

is not pain for me :'(

cause my heart is more pain than this :'(

</////////////////3

all i want before is HIM .

but now ..

all i want is he get his happiness :'(

i should be mature :'(

he don't love me anymore <////////3

He don't care me anymore <////////3

and he hates me ? :'((

but no matter how , 

i still love him :'(

i know all of this is too late :'((

Oh lord my god :')

i hope he can get his happiness :')

hope he can found his true love :')

i'm sorry to him :')

hope he can get well in his exam :')

hope that got another girl can treat him better than me :')

hope that he wont get hurt anymore :')

please forget all his sins :')

this is first time i so love a boy :') 

please , jesus ,

forgive all his sins :')

let him be a cleanest boy :')

and give him happy everyday :')

hope his family can get happily always and get a healthy body :')

let he and his family peaceful always :')

clean he's and his family' sins :')

all his punishment gives to me :')

this is what i can do for him at the last :')

Amen . :')

AHAH ! XD

hey , babyy boy :) 

i wont give up on you easily ! :D

cause i know i still love you , my heart still got you ! :D

i will change for you ! you wait and see ! :P

haha :D i will take you as my 奋斗目标 !! :DD 

ahahah !

i know you still so love me one , please admit it ! Ok ?! xD * PERASAAN *

we should wait those who is worth to lets us wait but not for someone who is never come back again ! :) 

understand ? 

there are still got many ppl better than you , but i don't want ! :P

you call me to find others better than you , but i don't want aaaa ! :P

I just want you , okay ?! 

please don't call me to find another cause i hate to hear it :)

i know you don't want i go find another d bha ! :DD just you want face bha :DD !

i know d bha :DD !

but i tell you laaa ! i lazy to find and also don't want to find ! :DD

who care you really love me or not ? i love you then can liao ..

who care you really want me or not ? i want you then can liao ..

who care you really care me or not ? i care you then can liao ..

ahahahah :DD ! i am shooo perasaan ! :D 

but who cares ?! i am who i am :D 

you can't control or change it IF YOU ARE NOT HIM ! :P 

Ngeeek x) ! I am so hyper today

:D dk why , i shooo want to write all y feeling although it's all just my "DREAM WORD" but shooo whatt ?! 

I love it and I love myself like this !

Natural Dith is sot 1 xD  

if you're my friends , then you must accept this xD 

i am sot and perasaan ! xD
I love YEERAN , ABBY , SYLVIA , LAURA , JACQ , *A* . * RANDOM *